Checked the call back list.
Wasn’t surprised to see I didn’t make it, but I still wish I had. I don’t know why I keep doing this shit, it’s gotten to where it’s no fun anymore because I’m always shoved in the background. At first, it was the experience that was fun, but now I actually want to accomplish something, I actually want a chance to be noticed.
Clearly, though, I’m not good enough. I mean, if I had the talent, I would have gotten called back. And, looking at the callback list, I know exactly who’ll be playing what, and every space is filled, except useless background characters, like myself. I won’t even get to be a fucking bird girl.
And here’s the kicker: I don’t even like Seussical. I may as well go ahead and quit, they don’t need me. And if I suck, then I should spend my time doing something else. Then it’s decided. I’m done with chorus, I’m done with drama, and I’m done with these stupid musicals. I’ll find something else to do.