Today we spoke but I am not sure if it meant anything because it usually doesn’t and you probably won’t remember me.
Today I got the chance to be near you but I don’t think it counts because how could it?
Today I almost hinted that I liked you but I thought better of it because it really is a good thing that you don’t know.
Today I thought of how funny it is that we regard you as an authority figure and, to some, a surrogate father, but in the real world you are young enough that my feelings would not be considered strange.
Today I joked with you and it made me think that maybe we might be close to acquaintances now and it’s okay for me to smile when we cross paths, but you might forget me again and that would be uncomfortable.
Today I thought about you nearly constantly and let slip to a few people that I like you, but I’m still afraid to join in a crush gossip section because what if it isn’t normal for me to like you?
Today I got a good view of your lips and decided that I would really like to kiss you but of course I won’t and I don’t need to explain why.
Today I got to study your build and noticed that your stomach sticks out just a little bit and I really like that about you, though I’ve never been able to explain why I hate muscles so much.
Today I wrote poetry about you but I was vague enough that I don’t think anyone could figure out it was you because I don’t know who will be reading those poems.
Today I stared at you from across the theater as usual but it felt different after our morning even though I know nothing has changed.
Today I contemplated pursuing a friendship with you but I’ll always be too shy to speak to you and you were probably just being nice today, you probably think I’m really annoying.
Today I giggled at your antics before I realized that anyone who noticed would figure out I was staring and then my crush would be obvious and might reach your ears.
Today I heard you sing for the first time and it was pretty fantastic but I guess I was already expecting that based on how you sound whenever you speak.
Today I was struck by just how beautiful a man you are and I pondered it for hours but I still have no answer as to what makes you such a living work of art.
Today I closed my eyes for a really long time and all I could see, all I could imagine, was just me in your arms with my lips brushing against your neck.
Today I watched you applaud and I thought your hands were just so perfect and I really am weird for being so obsessed with hands.
Today I decided it was a good thing that soon I will never have to see you again because I know that if I had more time with you, I would most likely fall hopelessly in love with you.